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MercyMe – Word Of God Speak

Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You’re in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

As I continue to think about the difference that Christ is supposed to have made in my life this song comes to mind. Tonight at Church we sang this song. I couldn’t help but think that this prayer is wrong. I shouldn’t be asking for God to speak to me. He’s already doing so. I should be asking for ears to hear the words. I should be asking for a heart that’s willing to listen and obey.

I’m ashamed to admit this, but I need to. I was in the elevator of my apartment building on my way to church tonight. A couple (probably in their 50’s) asked if I knew anyone that would like to earn a few quick bucks and help them move their couch. I didn’t. They asked if I would help them. I told them no.

Seriously!! WTF!?!

I want to say “how could I have done that.” But I know exactly how I could do that. I was being selfish. I didn’t want to get all hot and sweaty. I don’t like manual labor and I didn’t want to be uncomfortable. I didn’t want to be late to church. I didn’t want to be inconvenienced and do the right thing. How did I get to this point? How can I tune the voice of God so completely out of my life? Is this left over from the years where I walked away for God? When I actively tried to silence God in my heart and mind.

No, there’s more to it than that. I’m still silencing Him. I still tune the still quite voice in my heart out. I focus on my needs and brokeness and I choose not to hear. I choose to ignore the call. I am so hyper focused on my needs and brokeness that I don’t see what God is truely trying to speak to me or through me.

God help me listen.

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